That summer I went to Greece, and I carried with me my relationship with her. There is this mountain range there that juts out into the Aegean. It's known as Sappho's Profile, and every night, I would go to sleep under it.

Every day, I would spend amidst her profile. There was something unearthly drawing me to it. I'm from the Midwest, and I'd never climbed a mountain in my life, but I had to climb this mountain. The ascent up the mountain is a sensation that's difficult to explain.

I was bare- breasted, and I was sliding in and out of the sun. It was liberating. I got up to the top of this mountain, and I remember looking out. Everything was little clouds, and it was peaceful.

I just sat up there and meditated. I'd never meditated before, but something hit me. I didn't know what it was, but it was big. It felt like my energy totally shifted around, and something was stripped away. I sat there for hours.

I finally said, "That sensation is God." For the rest of my time there, in my quiet, personal time, I sat on the beach, I communed with women, and I had that feeling. It was really powerful and beyond my comprehension.

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